Can I be real?
There are days I wake up with a blistering pain in my heart, an urge to turn back time and salvage all we had. I wish I never allowed outsiders in, I wish I never let people’s words build walls between our friendship. More than that, I wish I had kept my emotions in better control. But who am I kidding? I cannot turn back time. And when it comes to affairs of the heart, I most definitely cannot make right what went wrong, I cannot take the hurt and call it well. I cannot fill a concrete cavity with sand and call it fixed because when the storm comes, the sand is swept away and all that remains is the massive hole in the ground. But this I know and in this I trust, that the Lord is in the business of restoration. What I cannot fix, He can and He will - simply because a care in my heart (no matter how micro mini) is a care in His.
And when that day comes. Let’s be full out weirdos - because that’s who we are. And that’s fine. People don’t get it, and that’s fine too. It’ll just be you & me versus the world, just like the good old days.
But before you go on a self-condemning streak. Just thought I’d let you know, that on most days, I wake up and everything is a-okay. The sun continues to shine, I still drag my corpse-like body out of bed and into the shower and to work, the kids still drive me crazy (and sometimes in a bad way) but despite all of life’s lemons, I still love it - maybe not as an entirety but for the most part.
I may not fully know what’s going on with you given our current situation but you and your family are still very much in my prayers - I declare Psalms 91 over you bunch. No weapon formed against you shall prosper - weapons may be formed, doctor’s reports may confirm it but the Lord has the final say and He says “It is FINISHED” and if the Lord Himself has declared so, who dares speak against it? Hence whatever lying curveballs the devil throws at you guys simply cannot prosper. You guys are so precious in His sight, a thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand on your right, but it shall NOT touch you or even come close to you - if His eye is on the sparrow, His eye is on you. 24/7 protection.
(Source: everykissbeginswithkayla19, via letloveprosper)